Wednesday, March 25, 2009

so many emotions...

I'm excited, overwhelmed, frustrated, ahhhhhhhhhh just so much is over taking me.

so from the beginning: i'm so excited! i went to see this amazing adviser at school and found out i have 9 classes left to graduate!!!! there were sooo many options running through my head, ie: do i want to stay longer and get my teacher's certificate? it sucks because i am so ready to be done with school and my anxiousness is keeping me from staying longer. i'm going back to talk to the chairmen of the college of education and see what my options are, but i'm leaning toward finishing now and coming back as an alternate route. imagine me - looking like these kids, trying to discipline & teach these kids ?? i figured after i graduate i'll look for an editing position somewhere; i'm secure til then, anyway. so that's that.

i have been sooooo sick and tired of my waitressing job. it's been killing me comepletely. with all the gossip: you have to worry about how you say things and who you say it around and then you have the table shark! IT'S FRUSTRATING!!!! it's an unfair treatment kinda job all this favoritism...DRAMA! i swear MTV should consider making it a reality show. it's the job i work the least amount of hours at, but acquired the most amount of stress from. i honestly can't say i know how much longer i am going to be there. soooo....

i spoke to a past manager and he said when i'm ready he'd take me back on as long as he had the business for it. GREAT! it's closer to home, a new start, somewhere a bit more organized. BUT do i want to continue with waitressing? i'm kinda tired of it. i know i want to go back to school and soon! i want to hurry up and finish what i started. i need to be somewhere i know i'll be able to have time to concentrate on school work.

THEN: i was offered a personal assistant position. nothing big to no one big, just someone with a lot on their plate and little time to do it all. it would just be a couple of times a week which is's a consideration.

then i get to thinkin: omG! all these bills ugh! i just want to be rid of them already!

but i'm trying to be positive. i'm seeing the glass half full. i'm trying to be healthy and sane this year. no stress, exercise, eat healthy. i try to go to the gym as much as possible, and eating healthy has been a difficult thing to commit to being that my life is on the go. then stress comes from this damn job that's been driving me insane! it's hard trying to squeeze total health into my schedule. i tell you, i can't wait til june, when my life could go back to normal.

WELL: i came across this drink called monavie. it's a fruit blend in a juice or gel form that you take twice daily. the crown jewel of this juice is the number one superfruit - acai berry. i'm still learning and researching this drink while taking it myself, and i must say - it most definitely gives me a natural energy boost to keep up with my congested life. the instant i take it i begin to feel it rush through my body and uplift me. meanwhile it's giving me the vitamins and nutrients i need daily. and i'm maintaining the correct number of servings of fruit required, according to the food pyramid. it's also high in antioxidants which help fight free radicals & diseases. long story short: it's claimed to be a miracle juice. i recommend it to all. soon i will have my website up and running, with all the details on my research, and how to purchase this miracle in a bottle.

see how my mind's been soaring...?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

mommy i just want u to know

"I'm in love with you so. if you wasn't here id be in love w ur soul"

saying I'm proud of mommy is an understatement. she's proved to be the strongest person I've ever feasted my eyes upon. you should've seen all the wows, oohs and ahhs she was getting from the nurses & doctors. she's up and moving mostly on her own, shoot the docs even said they see her walkin again (w/out a walker) in less than a month. can u imagine that?? recovering from major surgery in a month!

well she's at rehab now and will be there for 2 weeks - then its back home. she's doing super extremely well and I know its through the power and faith in God. without him NOTHING would be possible.

as for me, I've been MIA with all these crazy hours I'm working. I've kept in touch w the music world and there's sooooo much goin on (ie - rihanna getting beat up by chris brown - there goes another great career down the tubes) the 50 cent & ross battle still continues on (what beef of his doesn't? - he'll never have ANYTHING on the L.O.X) and mr mark curry (for those that don't remember him, his character is played in the biggie movie. a scene he was in, was in the car when biggie shared with him about his mother's breast cancer, and he responded that both his parents died when he was young. he also featured on songs such as "bad boy for life" by diddy featuring black rob) has released a tell-all book entitled "dancing with the devil". this book is going to reveal deep dark secrets of bad boy in particular exposing diddy (being the devil). I heard him on an interview (wendy williams of course) didn't sound too bright but wendy praised the book, said it was a must read. HOP ON IT! if u read it before me, pleasssse don't spoil it :)

& I'm OUT!

praise God!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

50 Cent & Officer Ricky Cartoon

the video speaks for itself.

told you i'd find it!

doesn't rick ross sound mad as hell? lol miss info couldn't say anything through out the whole interview she just kept laughing. he sounded ridiculous in my opinion. he know's he was tight when he saw that video of fif buyin her AND her friend: furs, ahem GUCCI - shoes, bags, & shades. talkin bout he was givin her comfort...lmao. what kind of comfort level do you think they left it at ross?

more on 50 & ross beef

i could not stop laughing through out this whole interview! how funny was he at the end talkin bout how he was showin tia some comfort. "she went through tough times" lmao 50 is soooo bad! lol he's goin hard at yet another career. only one i have yet to see him demolish is anyone off of d-block & this he knows!

fyi: ross better get back into the correctional officer field, cuz if that didn't kill his rap career, 50 sure will. lol

Monday, February 2, 2009

he is tooooo much

i'm tellin  you when 5O goes after you he goes HARD BODY!  check out this new video, of ross's baby mother spilling the beans, while having 50 buy her some furs & shit lol. i'm getting so frustrated cuz i can't figure out how to post this stupid video onto my blog (which if someone would like to help me with that, i'd greatly appreciate it).

however, here's the link to the youtube video of the 5O cent and Ricky Ross's baby mother interview:

Ross responded by saying he knew 50 was flying his baby mother around. um..u knew? lol stay tuned for further details!

Thursday, January 29, 2009

last blog for the night

these passed couple of days i've been UP on my music thing! lol...i've been going crazy STILL try`a download all the stuff from my iPod onto my mac (got a newby laptop and a fairly old iPod with over 2OOO songs!) & of course i'm catching up on a lot of the new stuff.

i'm anticipating that jadakiss album dropping March 10 "The Last Kiss".   

Jada has yet to disappoint me, and off the two last singles he's dropped, i'm expecting nothing but the best from his upcoming.

Here's a copy of the provisional tracklist:

"Pain & Torture"
"Something Else" Feat. Young Jeezy
"Things I've Been Through"
"Can't Stop Me"
"Money and Jewelry"
"Smoking Gun" Feat. Jazmine Sullivan
"Times Up" Feat. Barrington Levy
"I Tried" Feat. Avery Storm
"Searching" Feat. Sheek Louch
"Two-Step" Feat. Pharrell Williams
"Come and Get Me" Feat. Sheek Louch & S.I.
"By My Side" Feat. Ne-Yo
"Death Wish" Feat. Lil Wayne
"Letter to B.I.G" Feat. Faith Evans

Really quick before my laptop dies I'm trying to get the letter to B.I.G song which by the way Lil Cease did his own version to, also.  

And of course i couldn't figure out how to post it on my blog i'm posting, but it's on the right top corner so just hit the play button once you enter my page. ENJOY! 

"you're the best; you're the cock suckin best"


WOW! 5o dropped yet another beef track comin at officer ricky (nuff said). I am hearing a lot of negativity; idk if they're listening to the same song i'm hearing. then again people do actually like artists such as wayne. lol. I can barely tolerate him. Credit is given when credit is due so i give wayne his on the new renaissance rap remix (even though I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't write that himself). Enough of these bullish rhymes and these annoying hooks! I can't hear weeee oo weee ooo weeee ever again, without finding the urge to tie a noose around my neck and jumping off the tallest building in sight! lol

well there's your taste. tell me what you think.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

got everybody watchin what I do - come walk in my shoes & see the way I'm livin if you really want to;

"got my mind on my money & I'm not goin nowhere! so keep on gettin your paper & keep on climbing; look in the mirror & keep on shining. til the game ends, til the clock stops: we goin' post up on the top spot" -T.I

Man life has been hard lately. I'm aiming for a better year cuz 2008 SUCKED for me and everyone I know. I'm saying it sucks cuz i'm not swimming in pool in 85 degree weather, sippin on some happy juice :) Life as a grown up is totally different (i.e: chillin at home doin some homework, playin with your friends outside, watchin tv... aww man the LIFE!)

Well now it's my turn to take charge & become the adult (psh as if I haven't been for how many years already) - on Feb 5th my mother is going in for surgery and won't be working for 6 months. Now for those of you that don't know me, I am a workaholic! I'm the most money hungry chick you'll ever meet! I'm super waitress during the day & Pian
o mistress by night (throwing in my fitness moments @ the gym). I work everyday about 9-10 hr days and in addition i'm going to be taking over my mom's houses, too (cleaning houses every other day AHHHHH (x_X) lol .. a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

so my life's kind testing me at this point. I'm trying to take it day by day. I've turned my life around, living peacefully, putting the past where it belongs "it's called the past cuz i'm getting passed" - A. Keyz. Forgiving and moving on "the weak can never forgive; forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." - mahatma ghandi

My main concern at this point is my family and how this is all going to play out. Thank God for having a big sister & brother to help out. Being the youngest of 3, 9 & 11 years apart, one thing a lot of people don't realize is how it feels to have older parents. Man my dad, he's the light in all of it. He's so positive and easy going. He's got his share of medical issues himself along with a possible upcoming knee surgery. Wow.

It's all a test. I'm ready for it. I have faith in myself, family & the most God. I know he won't let us fall, especially my mom.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i'm sitting in the car

on my routine Wendy Williams & there's a caller that says she allows her teenage son to smoke weed in the basement. It's not just her son, but IT'S HIS FRIENDS, TOO! Just like Wendy, I agree that, it is beyond WRONG! She claims she does it so her son doesn't get arrested, but the real question is what is a mother accepting her teenage son doing drugs 1st in the house, 2nd with his friends (obviously without parental consent), & 3rd PERIOD! This woman has clearly lost all boundaries of parent and friend.

What do you think?

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

"in order to change the world, we need to change ourselves"

So, I finally went to catch the new biggie movie "Notorious", matinee of course! With sold out seats in theaters all over the east coast, Notorious proved to be exactly its namesake!

For starters Jamal Woolard aka Gravy played an exceptional role as New York's King of hip hop The Notorious B.I.G. He brought out the side of Biggie none of us knew and every one grew to love.

Of course that's not all: Derek Luke (Diddy) NAILED THE PART - dance moves and all ; Christopher Jordan Wallace (Lil Biggie) is an exact replica of his father ; Angela Bassett (Voletta Walace) NAILED IT demonstrating her strength, emotion, & compassion through out ever line, every word spoken ; Naturi Naughton (Lil Kim) OH MY GOD - this girl was phenomenal...word on the grapevine is she didn't get any insight on Lil Kim's character through Lil Kim - strictly TALENT ; Anthony Mackie (Tupac) woooow he showed how hype and live Tupac really was ; LAST BUT NOT LEAST - kuddddoooooos to my girl Antonique Smith coming out of EAST ORANGE, NJ! I loved the scene where Faith get's a suspicious feeling about her new husband Biggie Smalls, and checks on him in a hotel room. Once she arrived her suspicions were confirmed - she brought out true sentiment as her character.

Imagine the length of this movie if Craig Mac, LOX, 112, Jay-Z, Mase, Busta Rhymes, etc would've just made appearances!

This is a story of LIFE & DEATH, strength & weaknesses, joy & pain. It corroborates the struggles of a man and his mistakes with a tragic ending. (of course this sap cried!) It teaches you the value of life, and how it's too short to follow your dreams. It teaches you to INCREASE THE PEACE, STOP THE VIOLENCE! We are all brothers and sisters and we need to unite and help one another.

If you haven't gone out to see it yet GO!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Martin Luther King Jr.

"Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quick sands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children." - Dr. MLK.

Born January 15th, today we reserve the 80th birthday of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and it is a celebration well deserved! Inspired by Gandhi's nonviolent activism, King had a dream that one day all men would be created equal.

If only he knew his "I have a dream" speech would become such a big part of today's world. Tomorrow, marks the date of yet another black history event - the inauguration of America's FIRST black president. If he only knew, that his dream would become a reality, to not only unite people of different race, gender, & creed, but to progress the life of African Americans & their rights to vote, attend any school, dine next to a white person; the right to drink from the same fountain, live in the same neighborhoods; the RIGHT to not live in fear of police brutality or another man's fist, spit, rocks, & threats, because of who God made you.

On March 29, 1968, Dr. King traveled to Memphis, Tennessee in support of the black sanitary public works employees. These African Americans were on strike due to low wages & unfair treatment from their employers (i.e: black street repairmen received pay for two hours when they were sent home because of bad weather, but white employees were paid for the full day.)

On April 3, King addressed a rally and delivered his "I've Been to the Mountaintop" speech at Mason Temple.

"Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord."

Ironically this was Dr. King's last speech.

He was staying at Lorraine Motel room 306, when at 6:01 p.m. on April 4, 1968, the day after his delivered speech, he was shot while standing on the balcony of his 2nd floor motel room. The bullet entered through his right cheek smashing his jaw and then traveled down his spinal cord before lodging in his shoulder. After emergency surgery, King was pronounced dead at St. Joseph's Hospital at 7:05 p.m.

Exactly two months following his death, escaped convict James Earl Ray, was seized at London Heathrow Airport, while trying to escape with a falsified Canadian passport in the name of Ramon George Sneyd. He was immediately repatriated to Tennessee where he later confessed to the assassination of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Ray pleaded guilty to avoid a trial conviction and thus the possibility of receiving the death penalty, and was sentenced to a 99-year prison term.

Today is the day to celebrate black rights, and to look forward to the future under a new govern.

Here are some events taking place throughout New Jersey in honor of Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

CLINTON: 6th Annual MLK Day of Community Service Event, noon-2 p.m. today, Clinton Community Center, 63 Halstead St. Light refreshments will be served and it is free and open to the public. There will be volunteer opportunities for every age and ability. At the center, volunteers can color bags for meals on wheels, color pictures for Color-A-Smile, decorate placemats for a soup kitchen, assemble plastic ware sets for a soup kitchen, help with paperwork/mailings for the YMCA, Hunterdon Hispanos, Franklin Theater works and more. Also, volunteering at an off-site assignment is available. For more information, visit or (908) 806-1050.

EAST ORANGE: Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Worship Service, noon today, Elmwood United Presbyterian Church, 135 Elmwood Ave. (973) 678-0055.

FRANKLIN TWP.: Community Breakfast and Celebration, to commemorate the life and work of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., 9 a.m. today, Doubletree Hotel, 200 Atrium Drive in Somerset. $30. (732) 469-2600.

LINDEN: There will be a commemorative celebration honoring the day with town Assemblymen and the Mayor, 10:45 a.m. today, Morning Star United Holy Church, 1009 Chandler Ave. Call (908) 474-8493.

MAPLEWOOD: Martin Luther King, Jr. Day Celebration, guest speaker, gospel choir, reception and volunteer fair, 3-4 p.m. today, St. Joseph Parish, 767 Prospect St. or (973) 761-6116.

MONTCLAIR: Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Celebration, at noon today, the Montclair African American Clergy Association will hold its annual Dr. Martin Luther King Day Celebration service with a youth choir and praise dancing at St. Paul Baptist Church, 119 Elm St. (973) 746-8338.

MORRIS TWP.: Celebrate Martin Luther King Jr. Day, workshop with books and information to learn about Martin Luther King Jr., and unity wreath crafts, noon-3 p.m. today, Morris Museum, 6 Normandy Heights Road. $5; $4 members. or (973) 971-3700.

MORRISTOWN: Breakfast, hosted by the township of Parsippany, in honor of Martin Luther King Jr., 8 a.m. today. Hyatt Morristown, 3 Speedwell Ave. Registration required. $20. Call (973) 538-5491.
Interfaith breakfast, hosted by The Morris Area Clergy Council at Calvary Baptist Church, with music by members of the Morristown Presbyterian Church choir, 8 a.m. today, Morristown High School, 50 Early St. $20. Call (973) 267-0136.
Service, in honor of Martin Luther King Jr., with choirs from around the community joining in song, noon today, Calvary Baptist Church, 10 Martin Luther King Ave. Call (973) 267-0136.

NEWARK: Special Youth Theatre Performance, celebrating Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.'s birthday, with teen performers from the All Stars Project of New Jersey, 12:30 p.m. and 5:30 p.m. today, The Spot Lounge, 45 Commerce St. Admission is free. or (973) 622-5506, ext. 308.
Celebrating the Legacy of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day, screenings of a highly-acclaimed documentary film, two Gospel concert performances, an inspirational lecture and family activities fill the day-long celebration of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. from 11:30 a.m. to 4:30 p.m. today at the Newark Museum presented by Amtrak.
The first program of the Martin Luther King, Jr. Day celebration is the screening of "Eyes on the Prize," a segment of the highly-acclaimed civil rights movement documentary series "The Promised Land" at noon in the Museum's Billy Johnson Auditorium. The episode will be rerun at 2:30 p.m. and 4 p.m.
Gospel singing group "Sounds of Zion" will perform two shows in the auditorium at 1:30 and 4:15 p.m. The group won first place in the 2001 and 2002 national McDonald's Gospelfest.
An inspirational talk, "Words of Inspiration: Tree Shaking and Jelly Making: King in the Day of Obama," will be presented by Reverend Dr. M. William Howard Jr., Pastor of the Bethany Baptist Church, Newark, at 3:15 p.m.
All events for the Martin Luther King Jr. Day are free with suggested admission. The Newark Museum is located at 49 Washington St. (973) 596-6550.
Annual Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Celebration, with special guest speaker Assemblyman Craig Stanley, 3-5 p.m. on Jan. 25 at Gods Deliverance Praise and Outreach Center, 650 S. 17th St. (973) 280-3117 or (973) 280-0882.

PARSIPPANY: Interactive Dance with Daria, in honor of Martin Luther King Jr. Children age 4 and older will learn about the evolution of African American music, 7-7:45 p.m. today, Parsippany-Troy Hills Main Public Library, 449 Halsey Road. Call (973) 887-5150.
Celebrate Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday, the Lake Hiawatha and Mount Tabor Branch Libraries, respectively, will both be celebrating Dr. King's birthday today.
Lake Hiawatha will be hosting two programs through out the day. Everyone can stop in and share your dreams for the future with the library and other customers. Jot down your ideas on a flip chart that will be displayed for all to see. The children's department will be holding a drop in craft from 11 a.m. to 1 p.m. The theme will be diversity. Children will be able to take home a decorated craft and also create a rainbow to display on the Children's bulletin board in the hallway of the library. The Lake Hiawatha Branch Library is located at 68 Nokomis Avenue. (973) 335-0952.
Mount Tabor Branch Library will be hosting a children's drop in craft between the hours of 4-8 p.m. Children of all ages can stop in and color in a paper quilt piece to be put together to complete a sample Underground Railroad quilt display.The Mount Tabor Branch Library is located at 31 Trinity Park. (973) 627-9508.

PLAINFIELD: 33rd Annual Memorial Breakfast, hosted by the Frontiers International Plainfield Area Club, 8:30 a.m. today, Plainfield High School, 950 Park Ave. $16; $12 students and seniors. Call (908) 868-8704.

PRINCETON: Interfaith Service, sponsored by the Princeton Clergy Association to commemorate the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. will be held at 7 p.m. today, at the Mount Pisgah AME Church, 170 Witherspoon Street where Rev. Harvey Sparkman, will be the preacher along with faith leaders and groups from Protestant, Catholic, and Jewish traditions will participate in the liturgy and music. For more information, visit or call (609) 924-1666.

RAHWAY: Martin Luther King, Jr. Celebration, as part of the Rahway citywide celebration, the public is invited to a special ceremony and march, 10 a.m. today, Second Baptist Church, 379 E. Milton Ave. Call (732) 340-9477.

ROCKAWAY TWP.: Martin Luther King Jr. Day Service, with continuous screenings of his films throughout the day, 1-5 p.m. today, Rockaway Township Library, 61 Mount Hope Road. (973) 627-2344.

SUMMIT: Day of Service, to help motivate all who live, work or worship in Summit to volunteer and work together so as to educate, inspire and improve the community and to better achieve city unity. Summit residents are welcome to join in several events around the city, which includes book drives, luncheons or blood pressure screenings at the hospital. Activities start at 8:30 a.m. today and last through 9:30 p.m., ending with a Dr. Martin Luther King Evening Service at Fountain Baptist Church at 116 Glenside Ave., starting at 7 p.m. For the complete schedule, visit

WESTFIELD: Interfaith Commemorative Service, in honor of Dr. King Day, a special service will be held for the community, sponsored by the Martin Luther King Jr. Association of Westfield, 1 p.m. today, St. Paul's Episcopal Church, 414 E. Broad St. Call (908) 232-8506.

WEST LONG BRANCH: 20th Annual Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Memorial Breakfast, local residents and friends of the YMCA will join together in celebration of the life of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. hosted annually by The Community YMCA and the YMCA of Western Monmouth County, from 8-10 a.m. today, at Branches, 123 Monmouth Road. The event is open to all in the community. Tickets are $25 for adults and $10 for youth (12 and under). For more information or to purchase tickets, call (732) 462-0464, ext. 132.

WEST WINDSOR: Second Annual Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day Celebration, forum featuring keynote speaker Reverend Cornell Edmonds, Esq., Stated Clerk for the Presbytery of New York City, followed by a reception and multi-media display on the life and legacy of Dr. King, 2 p.m. today, Mercer County Library, West Windsor Branch, 333 N. Post Road in Princeton Junction. (609) 799-0462.